Making desisions is part of everyday living... in fact, every breathing second, you're making a choice. There you did it... and you did it again. You keep CHOOSING to keep reading. We love to think that the choices we make is a reflection of what we want, or possessing a certain amount of control over our own lives with the choices we make. But, there are times that inibitions hold back a person from choosing anything, and just let things slip away. Those people don't realize that not choosing an option is a choice in itself. Choosing to be a bystander is not one persons blame alone. Sometimes... not choosing to act is a better alternative than going through with the thought. "Think before you leap" has crossed your mind, hasn't it? Some people make this just as common to their own heartbeat. Thinking things through isn't their forte.
I know Im selfish to some degree... I've come to terms with it. I try to not let it speak to me whilst making desisions of my own. I like to help people, and I like to listen to stories. I like it when people talk to me, or when I talk to people, interaction with others makes my heart smile!! It's just so amazing to think of how many hundreds of people I see everyday, and knowing all of them have different stories of their own lives. It's just so beautiful to think of it all. The great master of existence; knowledge. An endless and expansive infection the human mind can be... so very contagious to me. I become infected immediately, and must stay attuned to that person at that very moment. But enough about that...
One thing.... one damn thing I am going to be selfish for is the cookie jar. Yes.... you read it right, the cookie jar. I want that delicious cookie hiding in the body of the jar. I see the jar, I talk to the jar everyday, asking it to let me inside, let me open the lid, let me peep inside. But the jar will not listen to what I have to ask of it. The jar will smile back, and give me a warm hug for trying, so I am happy for that much. But it is still my secret mission to hold that cookie once again! It's been over a year, almost two, and damn does that cookie jar have legs!! Fast thing.
Overall, my day was good, and a super awesome night to cap it. Hung out with the stars... Kat and I. As we gazed into the steller skies, taunting us with a dance of sparkles and dreams, we listened to each others stories of our lives that we didn't get to share together. Other worlds in which are alien to the opposite... I loved every minute. There were times that words were not needed, just watching the skies together was enough for me. We were on the local beach at around 1am, and the half-moon winked at us for the first time. Sharing each others stories is something that I truely enjoy. She has an amazing point of view that other people rarely touch on. On the way back home, towards dropping her off... I reflected on the past, and her. Even though I know I screwed up my chance, I still trick myself from time to time that I might have another shot at it all. It's not like that is the main motivator to hang out, no no... She's totally cool, and I'd rather be her friend for life as opposed to getting my second chance and mess it up. I want to share myself with her... ok, I'm really tired, I need to go to bed now.
Good night reader, and sweet dreams to you!!
I know Im selfish to some degree... I've come to terms with it. I try to not let it speak to me whilst making desisions of my own. I like to help people, and I like to listen to stories. I like it when people talk to me, or when I talk to people, interaction with others makes my heart smile!! It's just so amazing to think of how many hundreds of people I see everyday, and knowing all of them have different stories of their own lives. It's just so beautiful to think of it all. The great master of existence; knowledge. An endless and expansive infection the human mind can be... so very contagious to me. I become infected immediately, and must stay attuned to that person at that very moment. But enough about that...
One thing.... one damn thing I am going to be selfish for is the cookie jar. Yes.... you read it right, the cookie jar. I want that delicious cookie hiding in the body of the jar. I see the jar, I talk to the jar everyday, asking it to let me inside, let me open the lid, let me peep inside. But the jar will not listen to what I have to ask of it. The jar will smile back, and give me a warm hug for trying, so I am happy for that much. But it is still my secret mission to hold that cookie once again! It's been over a year, almost two, and damn does that cookie jar have legs!! Fast thing.
Overall, my day was good, and a super awesome night to cap it. Hung out with the stars... Kat and I. As we gazed into the steller skies, taunting us with a dance of sparkles and dreams, we listened to each others stories of our lives that we didn't get to share together. Other worlds in which are alien to the opposite... I loved every minute. There were times that words were not needed, just watching the skies together was enough for me. We were on the local beach at around 1am, and the half-moon winked at us for the first time. Sharing each others stories is something that I truely enjoy. She has an amazing point of view that other people rarely touch on. On the way back home, towards dropping her off... I reflected on the past, and her. Even though I know I screwed up my chance, I still trick myself from time to time that I might have another shot at it all. It's not like that is the main motivator to hang out, no no... She's totally cool, and I'd rather be her friend for life as opposed to getting my second chance and mess it up. I want to share myself with her... ok, I'm really tired, I need to go to bed now.
Good night reader, and sweet dreams to you!!
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